Redirection
when you feel the creeping sludge of doubt slowly covering your heart
from top to bottom
as you stand face-to-face with someone new
someone who excites and entices you
remember, you can wash that sludge away with a simple thought:
love is not something you earn by giving away all you have
it can’t be
you cannot give away who you are to keep a connection
you cannot sacrifice to make your heart open up
you don’t need to squeeze yourself into shapes that don’t suit your boundless, ever-changing form
to be uncertain is to be infinite
to be infinite is to float in the direction of desire, to the truth of who you are beneath the longing to prove you are worth loving back
you love yourself enough to know these things now
and as you snap back to this other’s eyes
your heart rests easy
ready to be here for whatever is here.